“Married in simpler days,

  A poor little wren of a being,

Who exists to pray and praise,

  And spends her life agreeing,

Thin and dowdy and pale,

  And getting paler and thinner—

Well, the point of this dreary tale

  Is I’ve asked them both to dinner.

“I’d leave her out like a shot,

  For I’m not so keen about her,

But, my dear, believe it or not,

  He won’t dine out without her.

She has that terrible hold

  That aging wives exert to

Replace young charms grown old—

  Poor health and impeccable virtue.

“Lightly I asked them to dine,

  And now I perceive the dangers,

My friends—yours and mine—

  Are so terribly rude to strangers.

But you, dear girl, I can trust

  To come and be brilliant and tender;

Vamp the man, if you must,

  But give an impression of splendor.”

Thought, “Poor dear Nellie’s ill-assorted feasts!

  I want to be as helpful as I can

Among that group of men and gods and beasts . . .

  Why does she think I shall not like this man?

She made him sound entrancing . . . strong and crude,

  Successful, dominant . . . I, who for so long

Have known a somewhat pitiful servitude

  To weakness, have no terror of the strong.”

Her maid held up her cloak of furry white,

  And gave her money in a golden purse.

She sighed: “Not even third-rate bridge to-night,

  Just third-rate conversation . . . which is worse.”

Isn’t that cocktail for me?”

Lee looked at Wayne and put her hand on his arm,

Under the broadcloth and linen she felt his muscles like steel,

Feeling, she said to herself, as a man’s arm ought to feel.

And she glanced at her own hand there, so slim and cool

With its single cabochon emerald, like a deep green pool.

“Shall we go first,” she asked him, “or let them all go ahead?”

And so they spoke of leading . . . and being led.

And then she told him a story, heard she didn’t know when,

Of an arctic expedition, from which two men

Had got lost and while they were off and away

They met a dog, starving like them and astray . . .

A clever heroic creature, who in the end

Guided them back, and they loved that dog like a friend;—

Loved him and worried about him all the way back . . .

What would he do when he met the head of the pack,

The leader of dogs, the old dog, cruel and stern,

Who brooked no rival. How could this new dog learn . . .

Himself a leader and used to his own wild way,

How could he learn to be one of the pack and obey?

Would he not fight for mastery . . . hopeless . . . they caught their breath.

Were they not leading this friend they loved to death?

And now the crisis was on them . . . they saw camp now,

Two men in a fragile boat and a dog standing up in the prow.

They pushed the boat as near as they could to the bank,

And someone to help them land shoved out a plank,

The new dog leaped on the plank, and the old dog, bristling and proud

Made one step to meet him in front of the crowd,

And they looked at each other a moment, and the old dog lay on his back,

And the new dog stepped ashore . . . the head of the pack.

“A very interesting story. Why did you tell it to me?”

Asked Wayne, with his black eyes on her.

                  “Why do you think?” asked Lee.

“Why didn’t Archie go with Jessie?”

  “My dear, she didn’t want him, of course.”

“Aren’t things getting a trifle messy?”

  “There’s nothing messy about divorce.”

“Algy’s a sort of weak Othello.”

  “Poor creature. Jessie is quite a bird.”

“I hear Nan’s doing her room in yellow.”

  “Her room? I think it’s her hair you heard.”

“Tom never could resist a title.”

  “Well, I’m rather a snob myself—”

“The woman is large and rich and vital

  And does not mean to be laid on the shelf.”

“Nonsense, she’s older than Tom’s own mother,

  And ought to be laid on a couple of shelves.”

While Lee and Wayne just talked to each other,

  Talked to each other about themselves.

“Nellie, the dinner was very good.”

“Darling, so glad you liked your food:

I’m afraid it’s all the fun you had,

With Mrs. Wayne . . .”

                     “No, not so bad.

I rather liked her. The old girl said

Good things; she’s got a tongue in her head.

But why the deuce need she look like that?

She isn’t old and she isn’t fat.

Wayne’s probably generous, certainly rich,

Why need she dress like a Salem witch?”

“Oh, I could talk an hour,” said Nell,

“On the psychic basis of dressing well.

It isn’t a question of pocket-books,

It isn’t a figure, it isn’t looks.

It isn’t going to first-rate places.

Believe me, the thing has a psychic basis.

It’s caring . . . caring a terrible lot . . .

Whether you’re right, or whether you’re not.

It’s being a slave, yet now and then

Snapping your fingers at gods and men.

It’s art, it’s genius, it’s using your mind . . .

What does the Bible say—‘that kind

Comes not forth but by fasting and prayer . . .’

Well, that’s the answer . . . you’ve got to care:

And Mrs. Wayne clearly has not been caring

For twenty years about what she was wearing.”

Wayne in his corner, staring at the skies,

  Thought, with his air of easy self-command:

“God, what a woman! What a skin, what eyes,

  Lashes a man could feel against his hand.

She lacks a leader, and she knows her lack,

   For all her skill and pride . . . I understood,

If I could turn Time’s moving finger back

  How easily I could lead her, if I would.

‘Why do you tell that tale,’ I asked, ‘to me?’

She looked at me. ‘Why do you think?’ said she.

“If I were free . . . but I have led my life

  With Ruth, and I am bound beyond repeal,

Bound faster to her than she knows: my wife

  Is sceptical and wise, and true as steel.

I will not hurt her, as I once before

  Hurt her. I have an oath in heaven; and so

I shall not see this lady any more.

  Thank God I have the art of saying No.

I shall not go to see her in her flat

Or telephone or write her . . . that is that.”

Ruth, staring at the polished onyx street,

  Thought: “Merciful God, must I again endure

This agony: must I again compete,

  I who am old and tired and insecure?

And she is beautiful and white and slim,

  And confident of stirring men’s desire . . .

I felt even as she first looked at him,

  Something that flashed between the two like fire.

I always know when these wild passions start,

By something sharp and sickening at my heart.

“Honey-toned Emily, my childhood friend

  Who sweetly laid her plans to take my place;

And that stenographer in Little Bend

  With her mad eyes and her impassive face . . .

Wild midnight scenes over the telephone,

  In office hours a most respectful ‘Sir’

And yet her heart was set on him alone,

  She really loved him, and I pitied her.

We had so much in common, she and I,

She almost told me, when she said good-bye.

“But worst was Grace. Grace with her secret art . . .

  She made him feel in some Satanic way

They were Olympians . . . she and he . . . apart,

  Superior to me . . . to common clay.

They were spectators at a childish play,

  They were all-seeing, in a world of blind . . .

I could have killed them both with ecstasy . . .

  She so contemptuous and he so kind . . .”

And suddenly his voice was at her ear,

Saying: “Did you enjoy yourself, my dear?”

But soon, she noticed, astounded,

That she was always listening . . . hearing

The telephone bell whenever it sounded,

Always hurrying, hoping, fearing . . .

Surely this time it must be—it is,

His voice I shall hear. But it never was his.

Other men came and wrote and wired,

Other men flattered her smallest whim.

More and more she desired

Only a word from him . . .

But he passed her by unaware

  Of her presence. “Well, well,” thought she,

“I shall not trouble nor care

  For a man who cares nothing for me.

There are men enough and to spare.”

Yet she wondered: “How is he able

  To leave his office at noon?

Is some lovely being in pearls and sable

  Waiting his coming soon

At a screened and shaded table?”

And Lee would laugh as she answered: “He

  Belongs, I fear, to that class in life

That thinks it wrong to go out to tea

  Without his wedded wife.”

But her faith in herself was bruised and shaken,

  She who had seen so much of men;

And she thought: “Can I possibly be mistaken,

  Was there nothing between us, then?

“What is it keeps him away, I wonder?

  Does he lack courage . . . has he no thirst

For life? Oh, dear, it would be a blunder

  For me to call him first.”

And then in spite of this long debating,

  She’d called his office . . . she didn’t know how,

And a strange voice said, after keeping her waiting:

  “Mr. Wayne’s out, just now.”

For that particular kind of ware . . .

That is atrocious . . . that is fair . . .

(Only of course it isn’t Ming)

This is the item I want . . . by far

The most beautiful, delicate, perfect thing

In the sale . . . the peachblow jar.”

The bidding was instantly brisk and pleasant.

Everyone present

Bid on the jar, but it soon was plain

Out of the roomful only two

Meant business,—her friend and another man, who

From the back of the room kept bidding steadily

Raising in hundreds only too readily,

Lee, like others, turning to see

Who this mad bidder could possibly be,

Saw it was Wayne.

And when the auctioneer said “Sold

To Mr. W.” (say it sadly

As if the enormous price were small)

Lee knew as well as if she’d been told

That Wayne had only been bidding madly,

Only been bidding perhaps at all

Because she was there to admire:

That he hadn’t come with a settled plan,

But had yielded himself to the spur

Of a sudden male desire

To take the peachblow jar . . . and her . . .

Away from another man.

And she thought: “He is mine once more.

He sees it is fated.

He’ll be there when I get to the door . . .”

But she found that he had not waited.

A bad one Sunday.”

                              “No, it wasn’t bad.”

One of those harmless, half-unconscious plots

That anguished wives will fashion to discover

Whether they see another woman’s lover

Across their table—at their bedroom door . . .

Who knows? Assuredly Ruth’s manner bore

No sign . . . she told a story . . . nothing more.

“Then one day into her canteen came

Kent, in his officer’s shoulder straps.

They had met as children—had had perhaps

One of those strange ethereal wild

Love affairs that you have as a child.

She knew him at once; he was just the same

Silent, sensitive boy, athirst

For every sort of beauty and knowledge,

Unfit for fighting, and so the first

To enlist, to leave some nice little college

Where he’d been teaching . . . and what was worse . . .

Writing rather poor English verse.

“Some weeks before his regiment

Sailed for France, she married Kent.

“In the course of the next infernal spring—

As to just when and where I’m a little bit hazy—

In the course of that final German drive

The boy went through some terrible thing—

Was lost or blown up or buried alive,

And he went insane—went raving crazy—

Is utterly out of his mind to-day,

Hopeless, shut up in some remote

Asylum. Terrible scenes occur

Whenever she sees him, and yet they say

He’s always calling, longing for her,

And tries when he sees her to cut her throat.

“That beautiful woman . . . that poor mad poet—

As sad a story as ever I heard.”

She looked at her husband; if he was stirred

By her tale, he certainly did not show it.

“Perhaps you knew it already,” said Ruth.

“No,” he answered, and spoke the truth.

You promised to come to tea some day?

I know you’re busy and great, but yet

The great are the ones to do as they say.

Kings and emperors never may

Make their devoted subjects wait.

Everyone suffers too much if they

Forget an acquaintance, or break a date.

This is the price of being great . . .

Not too severe, I assume you say,

You will always find me rather late.

            Very sincerely yours, L. K.”

A woman though much less quick and clever

Than Lee could see that this meant “never.”

And primal and unquestioned, and as near

To nature as the fall of day and night,

The tides, the seasons . . . It assumes its right

To earthly consummation as a star

Its right to shine. For it is older, far

Older by long millenniums and ages

Than all such moral principles as sages

Invent to guide man through his native fog—

Such as conventions and the Decalogue.

A mighty freighted vessel sailing

  Away to some vast and perilous dream

With a thousand mastheads flaunting, trailing

  Beautiful banners of smoke and steam.

Wayne at his office window, chinking

  Keys in his pocket, staring away

Over the windy harbour, thinking:

  “What am I doing? Why do I stay?

“I who have earned the right to leisure,

  Why do I work like a galley slave?

Work without risk or need or pleasure . . .

  What a goddam silly way to behave!

“Why am I not at this moment flying

  Before this gale on a leeward reach

Or digging for buried gold, or lying

  By a warm blue sea on a hot white beach?

“Time enough when my hair is graying,

  Time enough when my back is bent . . .”

And at this an office-boy entered, saying:

  “A lady to see you, Sir,—Mrs. Kent.”

“I know,” she said, “that it was not your plan

That we should ever meet: I know a man

Assumes despotic power, assumes his voice

In cases such as ours shall have the choice . . .

She shook her head. “Ah, if you thought it rare,

Precious and wonderful, you would not dare

Destroy it by yourself . . . not even you.”

He answered: “I not only would. I do.

You speak of friendship. What a silly word,

And as dishonest as I ever heard.

Let us at least be candid, for God’s sake,

And speak the truth . . . what difference does it make?

It is not friendship we are speaking of,

But the first moments of a passionate love . . .”

“You’re wrong,” she cried, “you’re absolutely wrong.

Not everything emotional and strong

Between a man and woman needs must be

Physical love . . . People like you and me

Are wise enough and old enough to take

This fiery elemental thing and make

Something for every day, serene and cool . . .

I am not of the all-or-nothing school.”

And on her willing lips she felt his kiss.

“Everything I do nowadays is pleasant,—

  Talking, walking, brushing out my hair—

Oh, isn’t it fine a friend, not being even present,

  Can give the world a meaning, and common things an air!”

But Lee and Wayne were clever

  And all that springtime through

They met and met, and never

  Were noticed so to do.

And no one whatsoever

  Suspected them—or knew.

New York in early May

Breaks out in awnings gay;

Daisies and ivy trailing

From every window railing.

And at this time of year

Strange open hacks appear,

Shabby and old and low

Wherein strange couples go

Generally after dark,

Clop-clopping round the park.

And with it all, the loud,

Noisy, indifferent crowd

Offers to lovers shrewd

Infinite solitude.

Gold beds with lapis-lazuli inlay,

  And chairs, and perfume jars of alabaster,

And many slaves were slain, lest they betray

  The tomb that held their master.

Lee leant her hand upon his mummy case,

  (Opened to show the gold and silver plating),

And as Wayne came her look was an embrace:

  “Darling, I don’t mind waiting.

“I like,” she said, “to settle in my seat

  A moment ere the rising of the curtain,

Waiting for something certain can be sweet . . .

  For something almost certain.”

“Do you remember how poor Juliet said:

  ‘Think you that we shall ever meet again?’

And what was poor weak Romeo instead

  Of you . . . a king of men!

“Don’t be surprised to find me at the train

  With pipes and garlands and a choric dance,

Telling the porters: ‘That is J. H. Wayne,

  My one supreme romance.’ ”

So it seemed natural to Lee to speak,

If Wayne were going away for a week.

Once he had waited, young and lonely,

For those daily letters to come, the only

Solace in absence, terror-smitten,

Thinking, Dear God, if she hasn’t written!

When did they change? what day, what hour

Did her letters lose their magical power?

He was the same man, and she the same

Woman—and still her letters came . . .

A letter from Ruth—a letter from Lee.

Wayne took them both with his bedroom key.

Was it a habit—a memory

Of that deep old love that his heart once nursed?

Who knows?

        He opened Ruth’s letter first.

A blue-capped official, proud and remote,

Was writing unmoved as the crowd increased

Messages brief as those fingers wrote

On the wall at Belshazzar’s dreadful feast:

“Train Fifty-One is on time. Train Eleven

On time. Train Nineteen an hour late.”

And then the announcement, big with fate:

“Train Fifteen on Track Forty-Seven.”

And Lee’s heart beat with a wild elation,

And she ran like a child in a childish game,

Pushed without pity or grace or shame

Past women and children to take her station

Where she could perfectly see

Down the dark hole where the train would be—

See Wayne as soon as he came.

The passengers came streaming out,

Some with bags and some without,

Some with babies, some with pets,

All about her was greeting,

Kissing and meeting,

Talking and lighting cigarettes.

      And when she saw him coming,

        His head above the stream,

      No miracle so startling,

        So magical could seem,

      As this—that he was coming—

        A real man, not a dream!

Nell answered. “I know . . . at least I guess.

When a woman like that whom I’ve seen so much

All of a sudden drops out of touch,

Is always busy and never can

Spare you a moment, it means a MAN.”

Wayne did not smile. “I am sure you are

Right,” he said. “Do you go so far

In the magic art as to tell us who

The man may be?”

                          “I certainly do,”

Said Nell. “It’s that handsome young romantic

Doctor who’s driving the ladies frantic,

So that they flock to be cured in shoals

And talk of nothing but sex and souls,

And self-expression, and physical passion . . .

Of course, no wonder the man’s the fashion.”

They’ve called him in to take care of Kent.

Imagine the long deep conversations,

The tears, the intimate revelations . . .

I wish to all ladies, lonely and sad,

Tied to a husband hopelessly mad

A handsome psychiatrist . . . good or bad.

Oh, there’s my car,” and so with a gay

Good night to Wayne she was driven away.

People will come for miles, they say,

To see a man burnt at the stake, yet none

Turned in that crowd to look at one

Standing quietly burning there,

Suffering more than a man can bear,

Consumed with hideous inner fire,

Believing his love a cheat and a liar . . .

Believing the moment that Nell had spoken,

For that day of all days Lee had broken

A date . . . at the time he had thought it queer,

And now, by God, it was perfectly clear,

Perfectly clear, no doubt whatever . . .

A doctor, handsome and young and clever,

With all this rotten erotic learning. . . .

Strange indeed that no head was turning

To watch this gentleman quietly burning,

In a trance of pain he heard Ruth say:

“Well, dear, what did you think of that play?”

“I will forgive, if I can.”

    “Jealousy made me insane.”

“I never spoke to the man.”

    “I’ll never doubt you again.”

“Jealousy made you insane.”

    “Lee, you have much to forgive.”

“Oh, never doubt me again.”

    “Never as long as I live.”

“Jim, I have much to forgive.”

    “Yes, but I’ve suffered like hell.”

“Trust me as long as you live.”

    “Dearest, I love you too well.”

“Poor darling, going through hell.”

    “Spoiling our beautiful Spring.”

“I also love you too well.”

    “How could I think such a thing?”

“Is he content with this snatched and broken life?”

  She thought, “when we might be free?

He cannot love that dowdy middle-aged wife.

  Does he really love me?”

She was not burnt by jealousy sudden and hot,

  But poisoned and chilled that he would not break

A meagre tie to a wife she knew he could not

  Love,—yet would not forsake.

One night at her window, looking over the Park,

  With his strong hand on her shoulder prest,

And a thunder-cloud rolling up out of the dark,

  Rolling out of the West.

Suddenly she heard herself quoting Macbeth:

  “ ‘To be thus is nothing, but to be safely thus.’ ”

He answered after a pause on a long-drawn breath:

  “Safety is not for us.”

And she would brood, injured, remote, self-centred

  At any mention that he had a wife;

And something chill and faintly hostile entered

  The magic circle of this hidden life.

O lovers, those legitimately united

  In holy wedlock, and less happy, those

Whose troth may never openly be plighted—

  (Less happy did I say? Alas, who knows?)

But lovers all, beware, and know the strongest

  Of wills may make a strong antagonist:

And that love will not always linger longest

  With those who hold it in too clenched a fist.

“The curse of love like ours

  Is that we seem to be

Always cut short by powers

  Stronger than you and me.

But if you stayed—what hours,

  Glorious, alone and free!”

                          And then behind her

She heard the steps of a servant coming to find her:

A footman stood with a telegram held on a tray:

“Terribly sorry I cannot get away

This week-end. Better luck next. Love. Jim.”

She turned her head to the footman, and said to him,

“Say Mr. Wayne will not be here to-morrow.”

And the man withdrew and left her alone with her sorrow.

The sun went down behind the great blue hill,

And she sat there alone in her garden, perfectly still,

Watching the wraiths of fog blow in like smoke,

And her heart as she sat there gently and quietly broke.

Faint tepid breezes wake

Now and again, and make

Lee’s slatted curtains shake.

Now and again in the street

The sound of passing feet,

And church bells, faint and sweet.

Faint bells that ought to mean

A village spire seen

Across a meadow green.

Faint bells . . . Wayne’s early youth. . . .

Going to church . . . in truth

Going to church with Ruth.

Faint bells, and Lee cries, “Oh,

How I should like to know

Why bells depress me so!”

“How queer it would be, if it turned out we

Were merely eddies—Jim and me—

Meaningless eddies in ether swirled

In and out of a meaningless world.

Well, if we are it’s nice to think

We’ve had some moments upon the brink

Of dissolution—of absolute chaos—

Moments of joy that well repay us.”

And she paused to note that her fellow eddy

Was fifteen minutes late already.

Waiting she wandered from floor to floor,

Every instant becoming more

Uneasy, and going back to the door,

Where Wayne ought to have been at exactly four.

She went from the skulls of Primitive Man

To the mystic temples of Yucatan,

Or studied gray elephants, vast and haughty,

But with eyes like pigs’ eyes, shrewd and naughty,

Flamingoes of beautiful coral pink—

The ancestry of the missing link—

But in between she was always hurrying

Back to the doorway, wondering, worrying—

And then she saw with a horrid sinking

Of heart, it was five! And she went home thinking,

“Something has happened—he’s been struck

By a ruthless, rollicking, rumbling truck,

Or crushed by a taxi, and now is lying

In some hospital ward—unknown and dying—

Or if they knew would they send in truth

For me? Oh, no, they would send for Ruth.”

And hurrying fast as the laws enable,

She found a telegram on her table,

Signed as usual, “J. H. Wayne:”

“Ruth has pneumonia alone in Maine,

Of course I am taking the very first train.

Sorry to miss you before I go.

When I know my plans, I’ll let you know.”

  The first emotion felt by Lee

  Was pure and perfect relief that he

  Was safe. And then she felt the force

  Of that cruel, domestic calm “of course.”

And then undeniably into her head

Came the thought unbidden:—“If Ruth were dead—”

And standing alone: “Poor thing,” she said.

Shepherded in like a stranger

  He stood beside her bed,

Gazed at those pale, blank eyelids

  In that carven ivory head.

Took her hand and heard her

  Murmur: “Is that you, Jim?”

But he knew she was very tired—

  Tired even of him.

Too much spent with the struggle

  Of drawing breath to afford

A brief smile—utterly weary,

  And more than utterly bored.

Here in the bedroom that he used to share

  She lived day after day, averse to living,

Indifferent, unforgiving, unaware

  That he had any need of her forgiving.

Tactful letters at first, and then

Letters less tactful and more sincere,

Ending: “Why don’t you write to me, dear?”

Write to me . . . over and over again.

But he could not answer her piteous call;

Not exactly that he forgot

Their love, but only that she had not

Any reality for him at all.

She seemed like a pleasant book he had read—

Read and enjoyed; but the printed page

Cannot compete with the heritage

Of Nature . . . the living, and Oh, the dead!

At last he sent her a brief reply:

“I cannot write—or eat or sleep

Just now. I am going through the deep

Waters. Forgive me, dear Lee. Good-bye.”

Cold was his room

    And his hands shaking;

Out of the gloom

    Dawn was just breaking—

Dawn cool and green

    Over the ocean,

Never more seen

    Without emotion

Of death—agony—

    Somebody crying—

All dawns that dawn, when he

    Knew Ruth was dying.

What can you do with a woman’s dresses,

    After a woman is dead?

Hanging limp in the cedar presses,

They are part of herself, her pretty dresses—

    What can I do, Wayne said.

What can you do with a woman’s shoes,

    After a woman is dead?

Shoes that perhaps you helped her choose,

Poor little empty half-worn shoes—

    What can I do, Wayne said.

What can you do with her brush and comb,

    After a woman is dead?

What in God’s name can you do with her home

And her loss and her love and her brush and comb—

    What can I do, Wayne said.

In this same churchyard,

    Sitting on the stones,

He had first said he loved her

    In young shaken tones.

That had been September,

    But not this bright light.

Between the pine-needles

    The stars shone white,—

Such a little maiden,

    Such a young man—

“I love you.”—And she answered:

    “I don’t see how you can.”

They had been so happy

    They had not cared at all

That the place was a churchyard

    With pines along the wall.

Beautiful, terrible service! He heard a word

  Here and there, and then he would drift away

To other memories and things not heard—

  Ruth’s laugh when she used to laugh, so little and gay.

“When thou with rebukes dost chasten a man from sin . . .”

  Was it sin that had parted him from Ruth?

Was sin the secret corrosion that entered in

  Like a moth fretting the garment of love in youth?

Too late, too late! He heard the parson say:

  “Before I go hence and be no more seen . . .

A thousand years in thy sight is but as yesterday . . .”

  Too late, too late! “As grass in the morning green . . .”

Was it Ruth he was leaving here in the churchyard plot—

  Could it be Ruth who had gone, not saying good-bye?

“What advantageth it me, if the dead rise not?

  Let us eat and drink for to-morrow we die.”

How can a man help eating and drinking?

  Die to-morrow! To-day, if he had his will.

How many years must he spend in thinking, thinking

  Of the thing which someone has said that all men kill?

Well, he could bear what he must bear—even the sound

  Of earth on a coffin falling. What must be must.

“We therefore commit her body to the ground,

  Ashes to ashes, earth to earth, dust to dust.”

Prayers! Would they never be done, these killing

  Rites for the dead! Ah, there was the organ’s roll

From the little church, and children’s voices shrilling,

  Piping Ruth’s favourite hymn, “Hark, hark, my soul . . .”

“Hark, hark, my soul! Angelic songs are swelling

  O’er earth’s green fields and ocean’s wave-beat shore;

How sweet the truth those blessed strains are telling

  Of that new life where sin shall be no more!

            Angels of Jesus,

              Angels of light,

            Singing to welcome

              The pilgrims of the night.”

“I loved you, Lee. I wonder if I can

Explain at all what’s happened? From your wealth

You gave me freely—more than any man

Has ever had—beauty, wit, youth and health—

I loved you passionately; and now my wife

Is dead. One might expect a mild distress,

A briefly pensive mood . . . Instead, my life

Is shattered . . . is dissolved . . . is meaningless . . .

She whom of late I thought so little of

And saw so little, was, I find, the spring

Of all I did and felt—even of my love

Of you . . . What an insane, incredible thing!

But there it is.

          “Dear Lee, this is the truth:

That any marriage founded on devotion

Though that devotion die, as mine for Ruth,

Is not a state, but a unique emotion,

Potent, unalterable—not romantic

Love, though romantic love is where it starts—

Marriage begins only when those hot, frantic

Fires have finished welding human hearts.

It is not love, friendship, or partnership,

But this emotion—marriage, of a force

That when it once has held you in its grip

Nothing will free you wholly—not divorce,

Or death, for these destroy not it, but you,

As I am now destroyed.

          “Beware, dear Lee,

Of a true marriage, if you are not true

Yourself—or you will be destroyed—like me.”